I’ve had some interesting dreams of late. I dreamt that I had married a man who I knew from my childhood. However, my family did not approve. I was thrilled to be married to this man and felt quite content. However, there was a nagging thought that I couldn’t tell anyone my last name because then they would make the association and think less of me.

I believe this dream could represent my relationship with Jesus. I was close with Him as a child and spent much time talking with Him and spending time with Him, not really caring what others thought.

As I got older I drifted away and filled my time with other things – friends, education, and interests. In my thirties, I rediscovered my love for Christ and recommitted to Him. However, there was a lingering fear that some people may see me as “Christian” and think differently of me. They may think I am a “Bible-thumper” or someone who had giant crucifixes mounted all over my house walls. They may choose to no longer talk with me for fear that I will look down my nose at them or judge their behaviour.

I’m not ashamed of being a Christian, but rather ashamed of my behaviour. There were times where I deliberately hid the fact that I was a follower of Christ. Looking back, I am embarrassed.

I felt like Peter who said that he would go to his death with Jesus, but before the cock crowed he had denied Jesus three times. In Mark14:29 Peter declares, “Even if all fall away, I will not” and then later says, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.”

Peter’s faith was strong but not strong enough when put to the test. Would I stand up for my faith or would I deny Christ? What would you do?

‘I tell you the truth,’ Jesus answered, ‘this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times’ (Matthew 26:34 NIV).

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Would I stand up for my faith or would I deny Christ?